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So today, or yesterday--night time lol, sorry its about to be 2am... I really started all over again--even though I don't enjoy my "bad periods" I do enjoy the very good sun filled days that follow them, because my really bad moments have really good ones trailing not to far behind.  I had my first- first date in a really long time--i mean a real first date, the one that has you trying not to sweat and has you trying to control the direction the butterflies in your stomach are going, and has you feeling like a little girl again because you wont stop smiling or laughing---hoping whatever your drinking doesn't come out your nose from him making you laugh so much...ohh yea--that was the date i had today. It was a really beautiful first date as i payed no mind to the cold weather, because it didn't even matter.  I'm excited for the 2nd. Wish me luck.